Brianne Davisis opening upabout the miscarriageshe suffered before welcoming her first child, sonDavis Nolan, on April 16.
“At 9 weeks, I went to an OB-GYN in Wilmington and heard the heartbeat. It felt like the sky opened up. There was so much love. Then, a week later, I woke up at 4 a.m.with horrible crampsand started bleeding,” theSixstar, 35, explains in the July issue ofParentsmagazine.
At the time, Davis was living alone in North Carolina while shooting the History Channel series — and had to be on set in three hours.
“I was thinking, ‘Please, God, make everything okay.’ But in the back of my mind, I knew this wasn’t good,” continues Davis. “By the time I left the house, Iwas already grieving.”
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After calling her husbandMark Ganttand her mother, Davis went to work and “almost unbelievably” filmed a scene in which her character visited the grave of a child she had lost.
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But that decision turned out to be a big mistake. “Before long, I was in so much pain that my mom rushed me to the hospital. They kept me overnight, and I had the D&C in the morning,” she continues.
Five months later, Davis got a myomectomy to remove the fibroid and began preparing to try again — and once the couple decided they were ready, they “conceived right away.”
“Mark and I were so happy, but I was worried too. I woke up almost every night, thinking that 4 a.m. situation would happen again. Trauma doesn’t go away,” she says. “But now I feel stronger. I also feel blessed that Iget to talk about my loss, because when I hear others share their pain, it reminds me that we all go through horrible things that we can’t control.”
And although Davis initially “struggled with feeling inadequate” following the miscarriage, once she beganto talk about her experience, she began to feel “less alone and less ashamed,” adding, “I’m lucky my story has a happy ending.”
source: people.com
