Photo:FOX/YouTubeBode Milleris sharing his story with his castmates on season 2 ofSpecial Forces: World’s Toughest Test.While talking to other contestants about his family, Miller, 45, mentions his late daughterEmeline(“Emmy”), as seen in an exclusive clip shared with PEOPLE. Emmy died in adrowning accident at 19 months old in June 2018.“It was brutal. She let herself out the back door and jumped right into our neighbor’s pool,” he says, as he begins to cry.Someone asked how Miller “deals with something like that,” to which the bereaved dad, 45, replies, “It does not go away.“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.Bode Miller on ‘Special Forces’Kelly Rizzo, who was married to the lateBob Saget, adds, “It’s such a weird thing that I never knew until you grieve is that you feel guilty for feeling happy. Even if you have a moment of happiness, you’re like, ‘Oh my god, am I going to get judged for feeling happy? I shouldn’t feel happy.'““It’s so conflicting,” Miller agrees. “It’s one of the strangest things.“In addition to Emmy, Miller is dad to daughterScarlet Olivia, 21 months, 3 ½-year-old twin boysAsher and Aksel, plus sonsEaston, 4, andNash, 7, with wifeMorgan Miller, as well as son Nate, 10, and daughter Dace, 14, from previous relationships.Bode Miller remembers daughter Emmy.Instagram/millerbodeIn June, the Olympianmarked five years since Emmy’s death in a heartfelt tributeon Instagram.“It’s been five years,” wrote the skiier. “On the night of her birth, our midwife @lindseymeehleis noted that Emmy was ‘here to change the world.'““5 years after her loss, I can see it. Emmy was fearless, determined and fierce from the moment she was born,” he continued. “We miss you Emmy. 19 months was never going to be long enough to hold you in our arms.“Special Forces: World’s Toughest Testairs at 9 p.m. ET on Monday on Fox.
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Bode Milleris sharing his story with his castmates on season 2 ofSpecial Forces: World’s Toughest Test.While talking to other contestants about his family, Miller, 45, mentions his late daughterEmeline(“Emmy”), as seen in an exclusive clip shared with PEOPLE. Emmy died in adrowning accident at 19 months old in June 2018.“It was brutal. She let herself out the back door and jumped right into our neighbor’s pool,” he says, as he begins to cry.Someone asked how Miller “deals with something like that,” to which the bereaved dad, 45, replies, “It does not go away.“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.Bode Miller on ‘Special Forces’Kelly Rizzo, who was married to the lateBob Saget, adds, “It’s such a weird thing that I never knew until you grieve is that you feel guilty for feeling happy. Even if you have a moment of happiness, you’re like, ‘Oh my god, am I going to get judged for feeling happy? I shouldn’t feel happy.'““It’s so conflicting,” Miller agrees. “It’s one of the strangest things.“In addition to Emmy, Miller is dad to daughterScarlet Olivia, 21 months, 3 ½-year-old twin boysAsher and Aksel, plus sonsEaston, 4, andNash, 7, with wifeMorgan Miller, as well as son Nate, 10, and daughter Dace, 14, from previous relationships.Bode Miller remembers daughter Emmy.Instagram/millerbodeIn June, the Olympianmarked five years since Emmy’s death in a heartfelt tributeon Instagram.“It’s been five years,” wrote the skiier. “On the night of her birth, our midwife @lindseymeehleis noted that Emmy was ‘here to change the world.'““5 years after her loss, I can see it. Emmy was fearless, determined and fierce from the moment she was born,” he continued. “We miss you Emmy. 19 months was never going to be long enough to hold you in our arms.“Special Forces: World’s Toughest Testairs at 9 p.m. ET on Monday on Fox.
Bode Milleris sharing his story with his castmates on season 2 ofSpecial Forces: World’s Toughest Test.
While talking to other contestants about his family, Miller, 45, mentions his late daughterEmeline(“Emmy”), as seen in an exclusive clip shared with PEOPLE. Emmy died in adrowning accident at 19 months old in June 2018.
“It was brutal. She let herself out the back door and jumped right into our neighbor’s pool,” he says, as he begins to cry.
Someone asked how Miller “deals with something like that,” to which the bereaved dad, 45, replies, “It does not go away.”
Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.
Bode Miller on ‘Special Forces’
Kelly Rizzo, who was married to the lateBob Saget, adds, “It’s such a weird thing that I never knew until you grieve is that you feel guilty for feeling happy. Even if you have a moment of happiness, you’re like, ‘Oh my god, am I going to get judged for feeling happy? I shouldn’t feel happy.'”
“It’s so conflicting,” Miller agrees. “It’s one of the strangest things.”
In addition to Emmy, Miller is dad to daughterScarlet Olivia, 21 months, 3 ½-year-old twin boysAsher and Aksel, plus sonsEaston, 4, andNash, 7, with wifeMorgan Miller, as well as son Nate, 10, and daughter Dace, 14, from previous relationships.
Bode Miller remembers daughter Emmy.Instagram/millerbode
Instagram/millerbode
In June, the Olympianmarked five years since Emmy’s death in a heartfelt tributeon Instagram.
“It’s been five years,” wrote the skiier. “On the night of her birth, our midwife @lindseymeehleis noted that Emmy was ‘here to change the world.'”
“5 years after her loss, I can see it. Emmy was fearless, determined and fierce from the moment she was born,” he continued. “We miss you Emmy. 19 months was never going to be long enough to hold you in our arms.”
Special Forces: World’s Toughest Testairs at 9 p.m. ET on Monday on Fox.
source: people.com
