Bode Miller and late daughter Emmy.Photo:Instagram/millerbodeBode Milleris marking a somber milestone.On Saturday, the Olympian, 45, marked five years since the death of daughterEmeline(“Emmy”).Emmy died on June 10, 2018, after she drowned in a neighbor’s poolin Orange County, California, at just 19 months old.“It’s been five years,” the bereaved dad began. “On the night of her birth, our midwife @lindseymeehleis noted that Emmy was ‘here to change the world.’ ““5 years after her loss, I can see it. Emmy was fearless, determined and fierce from the moment she was born,” he continued. “We miss you Emmy. 19 months was never going to be long enough to hold you in our arms.“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.WifeMorgan Miller— with whom he shares daughterScarlet Olivia, 18 months, twin boysAsher and Aksel, 3, plus sonsEaston, 4, andNash, 7 — recently reflected on grieving Emmy as the rest of her children continue to grow.After sharing Scarlet had started swim lessons, Morgan wrote, “Watching Scarlet swim today made me realize it’s been months where I have been running from the debilitating pain of losing a child…that gut punch that makes it hard to breathe.““I’ve gone dark. I’ve refused to cry. I’ve just wanted to be numb. Those grief waves hit where normally I would embrace the pain and grieve, but instead… I turn my back, choke back my tears and decide to do it another day,” she continued.“It hurts too much. The profound cellular sadness feels too heavy. And to know that I’ll be grieving the loss of my father makes all the pain and grief as a whole feel unmanageable,” she noted. “But watching her swim today also made me realize that this numbness doesn’t protect me from feeling the pain, it prevents me from feeling the joy…and without joy, what’s the point?““So after many dark months, here’s to a scary leap of living fully, openly, and vulnerably and embracing the depths of the fundamental human experience of love and loss,” she concluded.Bode is also dad to son Nate, 9, and daughter Dace, 14.
Bode Miller and late daughter Emmy.Photo:Instagram/millerbode
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Bode Milleris marking a somber milestone.On Saturday, the Olympian, 45, marked five years since the death of daughterEmeline(“Emmy”).Emmy died on June 10, 2018, after she drowned in a neighbor’s poolin Orange County, California, at just 19 months old.“It’s been five years,” the bereaved dad began. “On the night of her birth, our midwife @lindseymeehleis noted that Emmy was ‘here to change the world.’ ““5 years after her loss, I can see it. Emmy was fearless, determined and fierce from the moment she was born,” he continued. “We miss you Emmy. 19 months was never going to be long enough to hold you in our arms.“Never miss a story — sign up forPEOPLE’s free daily newsletterto stay up-to-date on the best of what PEOPLE has to offer, from juicy celebrity news to compelling human interest stories.WifeMorgan Miller— with whom he shares daughterScarlet Olivia, 18 months, twin boysAsher and Aksel, 3, plus sonsEaston, 4, andNash, 7 — recently reflected on grieving Emmy as the rest of her children continue to grow.After sharing Scarlet had started swim lessons, Morgan wrote, “Watching Scarlet swim today made me realize it’s been months where I have been running from the debilitating pain of losing a child…that gut punch that makes it hard to breathe.““I’ve gone dark. I’ve refused to cry. I’ve just wanted to be numb. Those grief waves hit where normally I would embrace the pain and grieve, but instead… I turn my back, choke back my tears and decide to do it another day,” she continued.“It hurts too much. The profound cellular sadness feels too heavy. And to know that I’ll be grieving the loss of my father makes all the pain and grief as a whole feel unmanageable,” she noted. “But watching her swim today also made me realize that this numbness doesn’t protect me from feeling the pain, it prevents me from feeling the joy…and without joy, what’s the point?““So after many dark months, here’s to a scary leap of living fully, openly, and vulnerably and embracing the depths of the fundamental human experience of love and loss,” she concluded.Bode is also dad to son Nate, 9, and daughter Dace, 14.
Bode Milleris marking a somber milestone.
On Saturday, the Olympian, 45, marked five years since the death of daughterEmeline(“Emmy”).Emmy died on June 10, 2018, after she drowned in a neighbor’s poolin Orange County, California, at just 19 months old.
“It’s been five years,” the bereaved dad began. “On the night of her birth, our midwife @lindseymeehleis noted that Emmy was ‘here to change the world.’ "
“5 years after her loss, I can see it. Emmy was fearless, determined and fierce from the moment she was born,” he continued. “We miss you Emmy. 19 months was never going to be long enough to hold you in our arms.”
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WifeMorgan Miller— with whom he shares daughterScarlet Olivia, 18 months, twin boysAsher and Aksel, 3, plus sonsEaston, 4, andNash, 7 — recently reflected on grieving Emmy as the rest of her children continue to grow.
After sharing Scarlet had started swim lessons, Morgan wrote, “Watching Scarlet swim today made me realize it’s been months where I have been running from the debilitating pain of losing a child…that gut punch that makes it hard to breathe.”
“I’ve gone dark. I’ve refused to cry. I’ve just wanted to be numb. Those grief waves hit where normally I would embrace the pain and grieve, but instead… I turn my back, choke back my tears and decide to do it another day,” she continued.
“It hurts too much. The profound cellular sadness feels too heavy. And to know that I’ll be grieving the loss of my father makes all the pain and grief as a whole feel unmanageable,” she noted. “But watching her swim today also made me realize that this numbness doesn’t protect me from feeling the pain, it prevents me from feeling the joy…and without joy, what’s the point?““So after many dark months, here’s to a scary leap of living fully, openly, and vulnerably and embracing the depths of the fundamental human experience of love and loss,” she concluded.
Bode is also dad to son Nate, 9, and daughter Dace, 14.
source: people.com
