Billie Lourdis honoring her late mom,Carrie Fisher.
Lourd, 29, posted an emotional video to Instagram of herself singing Fleetwood Mac’s “Landslide” to mark the five-year anniversary of Fisher’s death. TheStar Warsactressdiedat age 60 on Dec. 27, 2016, following a heart attack. Fisher’s mother and Lourd’s grandmother, Debbie Reynolds, died the next day.
To mark the five years since her mom’s passing, Lourd posted her cover of “Landslide,” which she recorded in a bathroom with her friend and fellow actressKaitlyn Deverand Dever’s sister, Mady.
Lourd continued, “On days like this I like to be with people I love (big shout out to these literal and vocal angels @kaitlyndever and @madydever ❤️I love you both more than any Instagram words could ever express) and to do something we loved to do together.”
“We loved to sing. We loved Fleetwood Mac,” she added. “We loved this song. It echoed in our living room throughout my childhood, playing slightly too loudly as she scribbled her marvelous manic musings on yellow legal pads (google them if you don’t know them - they’re the iPads of the past and are still pretty damn hip if you ask me).”
Lourd, who noted that she has been “working away from home” recently, recalled a night when she was experiencing “a particularly grief-y moment” and “Landslide” came on.
“The lyrics spoke (well actually sang) to me more than they ever had before,” she wrote, before quoting the line, “Well I’ve been afraid of changing cause I built my life around you. But time makes you bolder.”
Carrie Fisher and Billie Lourd.Todd Williamson/Getty
Lourd explained, “I didn’t know who to be or what to do after my mom died. I was afraid of changing because I had built my life around her. Then she was gone. And I had to rebuild my life without her. And it wasn’t (and still isn’t) easy.”
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Lourd’s latest post comes after sheposteda throwback photo of herself and Fisher toInstagramSunday, one day before the anniversary of her death.
source: people.com
