Carrie Fisher and Billie Lourd in Hollywood, California, on Dec. 14, 2015.Photo:Barry King/WireImage
Barry King/WireImage
Billie Lourdis remembering the “magic” of he late motherCarrie Fishereight years after her death.
The actress wrote atributeto Fisher on Instagram Friday, Dec. 27, alongside a throwback mother-daughter photo from what appeared to be a tropical vacation.
“I always dread this day,” Lourd wrote. “I spend so much time leading up to it thinking about how awful I’m going to feel. And my dread is usually right. I woke up this morning with a dark cloud over me. But when my kids woke up the dark cloud dissipated and made way for bright glowing sunshine.”
TheScream Queensalum, 32, continued of her late mother, “Her death anniversary is like an emotional tropical storm. It pours rain a lot of the day but between the storms the light is more beautiful than on any day without storm clouds. There are no rainbows without rain.”
Lourd added that there is a “great” quote fromAnne Lamottthat resonates with her, about how “grief is ‘like having a broken leg that never heals perfectly — that still hurts when the weather gets cold, but you learn to dance with the limp.’ "
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“That describes how I feel today perfectly,” she continued. “Yes the grief weather is cold and yes I may have a limp but I am absolutelydancing through life (oops I quoted wicked?). And I am actually a better dancer with my limp.”
TheBooksmartactress explained that her grief, though difficult, has “given me a deeper appreciation for all the little moments of life,” adding, “So today I am griefful (griefy but grateful).”
Fisherdied Dec. 27, 2016, four days aftergoing into cardiac arrest on a flightfrom London to Los Angeles. TheStar Warsveteran was 60 years old. Fisher’s mother and Lourd’s grandmother,Debbie Reynolds, died at age 84 from astrokejustone day after Fisher’s death.
From L: Billie Lourd, Debbie Reynolds and Carrie Fisher in Los Angeles on Jan. 25, 2015.Kevin Mazur/WireImage
Kevin Mazur/WireImage
Lourd spoke with PEOPLE in September about her mom and grandma at theToronto International Film Festival, reflecting on how her latest role inThe Last Showgirlreminded her of them.
“That’s so weird, a movie about Vegas and mothers and daughters … did I relate to that? A hundred percent,” the actress said.
Lourd said she “fell in love” withGia Coppola’s script upon first reading it because she related it to her family history.
“I was so excited to get to be involved in it because itreminded me so much of my mom and grandma,” she said of Fisher and Reynolds. “My grandma was a showgirl in her own right and my mom was a little bit of the character that I got to play.”
“So it was really cathartic and incredible to get to be in this movie and play this role. It was really cool,” Lourd added.
source: people.com
