Billie Eilish photographed for Allure’s Best of Beauty issue.Photo:Cho Gi-Seok
Cho Gi-Seok
Billie Eilishhas “not been doing so great” when it comes to coping with public life, but she’s “starting to do better.”
The seven-time Grammy winner, 21, is gracing thecover ofAllure’s “Best of Beauty"issue (out Thursday), opening up in the magazine’s story about how she wanted to hide from fame “all the time.”
“But Icando that. That’s the thing about diving into the hurt — I don’t need to do that,” Eilish said of the exposure. “I’m starting to do better, but I’ve not been doing so great, to be honest.”
“For a while. I have impending-doom feelings most of the day. When I think too much about it, how I can never have privacy again, it’s enough to make you want to do all sorts of crazy things,” she added. “But you have to let it go.”
Billie Eilish appears on the cover of Allure’s Best of Beauty issue.Cho Gi-Seok
Eilish — who was thrust into the spotlight at the age of 16 with the release of her debut EPDon’t Smile at Me —has gone on to reach a worldwide level of success, from numerous award show victories to her two No. 1 albums and five top-10 singles.
And as Eilish toldAllureThursday, she isn’t the same person she was as a teenager. It took her some self-realization to understand that “you’ve got to change,” she said.
“When I was 17, I was like, I found it. I found the person I am, forever. This is how I’m going to do it. I found all the ways,” she shared. “These are my boundaries. These are the things that make me happy, and this is my recipe for how I’m going to make music and be happy. Then I grew up a little, and suddenly life was like, These aren’t going to work. You’ve got to change. You’re not that person anymore.”
Billie Eilish poses for the cover shoot for Allure’s Best of Beauty issue.Cho Gi-Seok
“I have a really big problem with control, so I’ve been trying to teach myself that there are things out of your control and you have to move on,” she added.
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Eilish has also continued to learn more about herself through songwriting, too. Elsewhere in the discussion, the “What Was I Made For” singer opened up about her new song from theBarbiesoundtrack, and how she and her brotherFinneaspieced it together during a time when they “couldn’t have been less inspired and less creative.”
The song — which she previously first performed live at herheadlining Lollapalooza setthis year — “wrote itself” after they decided on the chords and opening lines, she added.
source: people.com
