Billie Eilish.Photo:Cindy Ord/MG23/Getty
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Billie Eilishis opening up about her experience with womanhood after years of being scrutinized over her body and sexuality.
The superstar, 21, got candid in a new interview forVariety’s The Power of Women issueabout her perception of her own femininity and her attraction towards women.
Eilish, who for yearsalmost exclusively wore baggy clothesthat concealed her figure, told the outlet that she’s struggled with her looks and identity because she’s “never felt desired or desirable.”
“I’ve never felt like a woman, to be honest with you. I’ve never felt desirable. I’ve never felt feminine," revealed Eilish. “I have to convince myself that I’m, like, a pretty girl.”
Billie Eilish on the cover of ‘Variety’.Victoria Stevens for Variety
Victoria Stevens for Variety
The “Bad Guy” singer clarified her preferred pronouns, adding, “I identify as ‘she/her’ and things like that, but I’ve never really felt like a girl.”
The Grammy winner explained that because she has long had complicated feelings about her own womanhood, it’s led her to feel as if other women don’t like her. “I’ve never really felt like I could relate to girls very well,” she shared.
Although Eilish wrestles with that assumption, she admitted that she’s “attracted to” other women. “I love [women] so much. I love them as people. I’m attracted to them as people. I’m attracted to them for real,” she said.
Billie Eilish.Nykieria Chaney/Getty
Nykieria Chaney/Getty
As Eilish has faced a great deal of scrutiny surrounding topics like her sexuality and dating history, which she toldVarietyhas been “weird and upsetting,” she has been relatively private about her personal life in the past.
The singer was last romantically linked toJesse Rutherfordof the alternative band The Neighbourhood starting in October 2022. After eight months of dating, a source confirmed to PEOPLE that the two musicians had split in May, but noted they “remain good friends.”
Billie Eilish.Michael Hickey/Getty Images
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The “What Was I Made For?” singer has previously addressed her frustration with the way the media and listeners have inquired about her sexuality before.
“Like, oh yeah, that’s everyone else’s business, right? No. Where’s that energy with men?” she continued. “I just wanted to make a song once, and then I kept making songs. I never said, ‘Hey, pay attention to my life.’”
source: people.com
